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[Tuesday
Mar 22, 05 8:04pm]
[ mood | neutral ]

hey, sorry i havent been on, im just lazy and what not..

not much is goin on really... i mean, some stufff is, but nothing important or dramatic..

ive been working on my sportcoat.. it is my acclaimed art project, i cant let a green valour sportcoat go to waste, can i?

ill get pics of it later.

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[Tuesday
Mar 08, 05 9:50am]
so.. its tuesday and im still sick...

and bored as hell to boot
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[Saturday
Mar 05, 05 4:01pm]
[ mood | chect cold byotches ]

ugh.. im sick...

i gotta chest cold and its buggin me
somebody talk to me...

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hypoextentialinarianisim [Tuesday
Mar 01, 05 9:28pm]
[ mood | irratable ]

so.. life is life.. not that diffrent.. id love to see me end up a rock star.. never work out tho.. still, the record label.. if it works out, ill be paid for sitting about messing w/ my gee-tar.. awesome

gonna dye mah hair black again..

thats it

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[Thursday
Feb 24, 05 10:10pm]
Take the quiz: "What Disney Princess Are You?"

Pocahontas
A free spirite of sorts. My favorite Disney princess...you're so brave!
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[Wednesday
Feb 23, 05 9:25pm]
soo... nothing has been going on.. at all
somebody needs to get on tho
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[Monday
Feb 21, 05 7:01pm]
i sooo dont wanna go 2 school 2marrah

somebody get me sick
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[Sunday
Feb 20, 05 7:06pm]
man, i hate bill cosby..
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danny devito should do porn [Tuesday
Feb 15, 05 7:06am]
well, everybodys heard about brandon beihle fi figure, so no need talkin about it, sorta hit me hard tho

today my hawk is pink

today my hawk is sexy
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[Thursday
Feb 10, 05 6:05pm]
soo... im really looking forward to band practice this week.

pretty sure bassmons out. but we can manage

well... i have youth group... ill be on when i get back
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[Tuesday
Feb 08, 05 8:19pm]
ive changed alot in the past three years, you know? just sorta... struck me
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[Sunday
Feb 06, 05 2:48pm]
[ mood | i gotta cold ]

sorry i havent posted for a while... lifes gettin all topsy-turvy on my side of the fence
so... nothing really has changed... pretty sure im bi tho... but i dont want to be.. i wanna be bloody straight, and not have to think about it. well, i guess thats it for now

oya.. im sick too.. i gotta nasty cold and i have a headache and all that good crap... so.. thats it

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[Tuesday
Feb 01, 05 7:10am]
[ mood | confused ]

yeah...

i think i might be gay :(

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[Sunday
Jan 30, 05 2:34pm]
not much happened lately, ge got a red on our ensemble yesterday

and im single again... so yeah... life is hardcore

go watch garage days, its a good movie
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[Thursday
Jan 27, 05 9:53pm]


well... today was cool... not much happened tho... im hungry and stuff too... so... ciao
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[Tuesday
Jan 25, 05 10:37pm]
hey everybody.... rough times ahead....

i need help.

im a very, very dangerous person when i get mad... i sorta lose control and do things... things i regret for the rest of my life... no matter how much of a mask i puty on to hide my scars.... they show... and im sorry for that...

perhaps i should explain...

my dad wants to see me again... he wants to be the "dad he never was" when i needed him, he thinks he can just... patch up all of my wounds... with sob stories about how much e "misses me" and all that glased over bullcrap.... my dad wants to see me again... and i dont think i can let him... out of pure consideration of his life, i cannot let him see me, and i know if i told him" dad, if i saw you, i would kill you" would send me straight backk to a.m, the shrink, the pills... the whole kit n' kaboodle

but it is worrying me

cos i do want to see him
i want him to be my dad... i want to be loved... i want a make figure in my life other than my uncle, or moms past boyfreinds.. or john...
i want a dad

and deep down... that is why i know im so screwed up is i do want to see him, but if i do... i know of the horrible things id do to him...

so, as of now... i havent slept in two days... of course theyre school days... but you dont get as tired on crutches once you get used to them...

slowly, slowly the color of my life is fading, getting duller, until it is just grey... no emotion.. no happines... goodbye old matt... hello... grey

and what after that? will the grey become more grey? will black and white mix in as well? will the entire world... just melt into one continious shade...

its hard doing this...

its hard putting on my mask of everythings okay in matthew-land....man...

i dont know what to do anymore... i cant talk to anyone... theyll reccoment me more treatment... and im never going back there...


i apologise for the incoherentince

this is my way of self-psycology.

end.
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scruben devoischt [Sunday
Jan 23, 05 4:10pm]
[ mood | horny ]

.....so bored....

i got a kilt
and a tuxedo
thats it man...

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[Thursday
Jan 20, 05 7:34pm]
hey all

i have my shexy orange mowhawk now... its veddy veddy shexy and it makes alladuh ladiesh go "oooh"

anywho... knee is still screwed up... goin in 4 an mri 2marrah... at nine... so... keep your fingers crossed

man... i think im gonna go to a concert.... either a... bowling for soup concert... or a modest mouse one... either way... i will need to get a t-shirt

uhh... i rock

and im out
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[Tuesday
Jan 18, 05 6:54am]
everyone else did quizzesCollapse )
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hot cybersex [Monday
Jan 17, 05 8:08pm]
Wellhung: Hello, Sweetheart. What do you look like?

Sweetheart: I am wearing a red silk blouse, a miniskirt and high heels. I work out every day, I'm toned and perfect. My measurements are 36-24-36. What do you look like?

Wellhung: I'm 6'3" and about 250 pounds.I wear glasses and I have on a pair of blue sweat pants I just bought from Walmart.I'm also wearing a T-shirt with a few spots of barbecue sauce on it from dinner...it smells funny.

Sweetheart: I want you.Would you like to screw me?

Wellhung: OK.

Sweetheart: We're in my bedroom.There's soft music playing on the stereo and candles on my dresser and night table.I'm looking up into your eyes, smiling. My hand works its way down to your crotch and begins to fondle your huge, swelling bulge.

Wellhung: I'm gulping, I'm beginning to sweat.

Sweetheart: I'm pulling up your shirt and kissing your chest.

Wellhung: Now I'm unbuttoning your blouse.My hands are trembling.

Sweetheart: I'm moaning softly.

Wellhung: I'm taking hold of your blouse and sliding it off slowly.

Sweetheart: I'm throwing my head back in pleasure.The cool silk slides off my warm skin.I'm rubbing your bulge faster, pulling and rubbing.

Wellhung: My hand suddenly jerks spastically and accidentally rips a hole in your blouse.I'm sorry.

Sweetheart: That's OK, it wasn't really too expensive.

Wellhung: I'll pay for it.

Sweetheart: Don't worry about it.I'm wearing a lacy black bra.My soft breasts are rising and falling, as I breath harder and harder.

Wellhung: I'm fumbling with the clasp on your bra.I think it's stuck. Do you have any scissors?

Sweetheart: I take your hand and kiss it softly.I'm reaching back undoing the clasp. The bra slides off my body. The air caresses my breasts. My nipples are erect for you.

Wellhung: How did you do that? I'm picking up the bra and inspecting the clasp.

Sweetheart: I'm arching my back. Oh baby. I just want to feel your tongue all over me.

Wellhung: I'm dropping the bra. Now I'm licking your, you know, breasts. They're neat!

Sweetheart: I'm running my fingers through your hair. Now I'm nibbling your ear.

Wellhung: I suddenly sneeze. Your breasts are covered with spit and phlegm.

Sweetheart: What?

Wellhung: I'm so sorry. Really.

Sweetheart: I'm wiping your phlegm off my breasts with the remains of my blouse.

Wellhung: I'm taking the sopping wet blouse from you. I drop it with a plop.

Sweetheart: OK. I'm pulling your sweat pants down and rubbing your hard tool.

Wellhung: I'm screaming like a woman. Your hands are cold! Yeeee!

Sweetheart: I'm pulling up my miniskirt. Take off my panties.

Wellhung: I'm pulling off your panties. My tongue is going all over, in and out nibbling on you...umm... wait a minute.

Sweetheart: What's the matter?

Wellhung: I've got a pubic hair caught in my throat. I'm choking.

Sweetheart: Are you OK?

Wellhung: I'm having a coughing fit. I'm turning all red.

Sweetheart: Can I help?

Wellhung: I'm running to the kitchen, choking wildly. I'm fumbling through the cabinets, looking for a cup. Where do you keep your cups?

Sweetheart: In the cabinet to the right of the sink.

Wellhung: I'm drinking a cup of water. There, that's better.

Sweetheart: Come back to me, lover.

Wellhung: I'm washing the cup now.

Sweetheart: I'm on the bed arching for you.

Wellhung: I'm drying the cup. Now I'm putting it back in the cabinet. And now I'm walking back to the bedroom. Wait, it's dark, I'm lost. Where's the bedroom?

Sweetheart: Last door on the left at the end of the hall.

Wellhung: I found it.

Sweetheart: I'm tuggin' off your pants. I'm moaning. I want you so badly.

Wellhung: Me too.

Sweetheart: Your pants are off. I kiss you passionately - our naked bodies pressing each other.

Wellhung: Your face is pushing my glasses into my face. It hurts.

Sweetheart: Why don't you take off your glasses?

Wellhung: OK, but I can't see very well without them. I place the glasses on the night table.

Sweetheart: I'm bending over the bed. Give it to me, baby!

Wellhung: I have to pee. I'm fumbling my way blindly across the room and toward the bathroom.

Sweetheart: Hurry back, lover.

Wellhung: I find the bathroom and it's dark. I'm feeling around for the toilet. I lift the lid.

Sweetheart: I'm waiting eagerly for your return.

Wellhung: I'm done going. I'm feeling around for the flush handle, but I can't find it. Uh-oh!

Sweetheart: What's the matter now?

Wellhung: I've realized that I've peed into your laundry hamper. Sorry again. I'm walking back to the bedroom now, blindly feeling my way.

Sweetheart: Mmm, yes. Come on.

Wellhung: OK, now I'm going to put my...you know ...thing...in your...you know...woman's thing.

Sweetheart: Yes! Do it, baby! Do it!

Wellhung: I'm touching your smooth butt. It feels so nice. I kiss your neck. Umm, I'm having a little trouble here.

Sweetheart: I'm moving my ass back and forth, moaning. I can't stand it another second! Slide in! Screw me now!

Wellhung: I'm flaccid.

Sweetheart: What?

Wellhung: I'm limp. I can't sustain an erection.

Sweetheart: I'm standing up and turning around; an incredulous look on my face.

Wellhung: I'm shrugging with a sad look on my face, my weiner all floppy. I'm going to get my glasses and see what's wrong.

Sweetheart: No, never mind. I'm getting dressed. I'm putting on my underwear. Now I'm putting on my wet nasty blouse.

Wellhung: No wait! Now I'm squinting, trying to find the night table. I'm feeling along the dresser, knocking over cans of hair spray,picture frames and your candles.

Sweetheart: I'm buttoning my blouse. Now I'm putting on my shoes.

Wellhung: I've found my glasses. I'm putting them on. My God! One of our candles fell on the curtain. The curtain is on fire! I'm pointing at it, a shocked look on my face.

Sweetheart: Go to hell. I'm logging off, you loser!

Wellhung: Now the carpet is on fire! Oh noooo!

Sweetheart: { [logged off]
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